Over and Over!

Sorry it has been so long. I have been to laying on the ground and then standing up again. I feel like I have hit my bottom and then I have come up but it keeps happening over and over and over again. I hate my depression. I hate my self injury. I hate taking … Continue reading →

One last meal…

I always do this and it usually happens on the weekend. Anyways I always tell my husband let’s go out for one last nice meal because tomorrow I really need to buckle down and get this fat off me. So, we went out to Red Robin last nice. It was a good meal. When we … Continue reading →

In the zone!

If only I could work out all day long that would be amazing and I wouldn’t be able let my mind wander! I love challenging work outs especially when we do deep squats with a press. Now let me tell you a deep squat at 300 pounds is hard enough, but when I am adding … Continue reading →

A week and a half of eating:

Get’s you no where. No where at all. A week and a half of eating did me wrong. I gained almost 15 pounds in a week and a half of eating. My self harm style of eating is killing me. I don’t even want to look at myself in the mirror, take a shower, and … Continue reading →